nashburn69

2010-03-03T02:05:00.001+08:00

to you

from my heart
what ever that is left of it...

goodbye...and please take care...
i'm here always

yours truly
angel

2010-02-16T02:36:00.002+08:00

i didn't have the time to heal this broken heart
you cant help but break it time and time again
each seconds and each minute, you never fail
to do this heart injustice over and over again

at times i ask myself, where i got the strength
to keep standing facing you and your words
there are times i ask whether i'm insane
to keep running to you each time you call my name

my heart keeps saying your name
keeps saying its fine
as long as i'm by your side
as long i still love you
cos my heart yearns only you

in the depth of my heart
there is this aching pain
heavy filled with sorrow
that will never be cured

my eyes will tear every other day
my mind will try to stop it
but each time it tries
it hurts a million times more

all i know about you is that
you are all that i want
you are all that i need
i do not want anyone else

all say to be careful who you love
and i say she is the one
no one living thing can change that
i'm in love with her

need her to know
i'm really trying to let her go
don't want to hurt her
with my aching heart

if our path ever cross again
would you take my hand
and fall with me again
let me be the one for you

the irony of it all

2010-02-08T04:07:00.002+08:00

i've just did all my laundry...its amazing... all the clutter in my room is 99.9% gone

but my heart ... i wish i could put it in the laundry..

clean all the poison and hurt out.
wish it was that easy.
i dunno bout the future and how i would be like
how i would think of love and romance
i still think it will still be inside me
but not really positive of it right now

i have had dreams of how i will change drasticly in the future
some are nice and some are just horrid

one time i dream i met a new girl and got tog with her
but even in that dream i feel my heart is not totally over her
and part of it or most of my heart still wanna be with her in the end

the other dream i had is that went to south africa to work and migrate
and never came back
and our paths just never cross each other again
thats horrid

i dunno
but all i noe was
that before i die
i wan to hug her and tell her how much i still love her
no matter how many decades may have pass .
or at least get to see her laugh and smile before i leave earth
thats all i ask

i dun even ask for her love for me
just wanna see her happy and be happy for her truly

no matter how painful or foolish these intentions may seem
but its a stage of love at a higher degree
that i know one will have to go through it once in their life to fully understand it all...

i'm begining to understand the meaning of giving and not expecting anything in return
begining to understand... but to fully put it in action takes time
sacrificing for someone you truly love no matter wad the world says
and to continuing loving someone in silent

its all part and parcel of life and love
i know if i can master this
i'll be a better person
i hope and pray
that she sees the way i see it
and be a better person too one day

with love
nash

2009-12-23T02:23:00.002+08:00

in everything you do in life
there will be a time that you will suddenly stop and wonder
what are you here for?

why are you here?

and then your mind just go blank
i stop in my tracks today and decided to be at starbuck tampiness to enjoy internet and coffee alone. while doing so in my head i ask myself... what am i gg to do now.?
where should i start ? when should i start?

then i realise it is cause you still have aan impact on me no matter what. you made me realise that no matter what life still goes on and that sometimes when it don't go your way... you just have to take one step at a time and take it in your stride..

now i feel at peace and calm but usually when my mind is weak and starts to ponder again and again ... i tend to hurt the people closest to me. i dun mean it. but that is wad happen to me.

a friend once told me that when u start cheating you cant seem to stop.. its a poison ... and a vice to make life more exciting or less mundane. but now then i decided to think that she is not 100% true... yes cheating is a poison to both the cheater and the cheated but both the cheater and the cheated have choices.

the cheater may wish to never cheat and the cheater would wish to have never been cheated. well the truth is whether or not you can stop it is the question. the cheated can stop until sth really drastic happen like be cheated on and get a feel of it.and the cheater just wait for the right moment to leave or hurt the cheater.

sometimes i think no one should ever say that they will never cheat... even the richest and famous like tiger woods and bill clinton cheats. ever wonder that it might just be a norm one day that everyone will cheat whether or not its a small flirty thing... everyone will.

all i know is that its never too late too change. never too late to change the choices you make in the future. everyone have to go through it the hard way and some ppl just wanna fit in or go thru it cos it is childhood memories that we are collecting.

in LOVE
a lot of patience is needed.

2009-12-21T01:10:00.001+08:00

Girl you know we belong together
I don't have time for you to be playing with my heart like this
You'll be mine forever baby
You just wait
We belong together
And you know that I'm right
Why do you play with my heart
Why do you play with my mind

Said we'd be forever
Said it'd never die
How could you love me and leave me and never
Say goodbye

When I can't sleep at night
Without holding you tight
Girl, each time I try I just break down and cry
Pain in my head
Oh, I'd rather be dead
Spinning around and around

Although we've come
To the end of the road
Still I can't let go
It's unnatural
You belong to me
I belong to you

Come
To the end of the road
Still I can't let go
It's unnatural
You belong to me
I belong to you

Girl, I know you really love me
You just don't realize
You've never been there before
It's only
Your first time

Maybe I'll forgive you
Maybe you'll try
We should be happy together forever
You and I

Will you love me again
Like you loved me before
This time I want you to love me much more
This time instead
Just come to my bed
And baby just don't let me go

Although we've come
To the end of the road
Still I can't let go
It's unnatural
You belong to me
I belong to you

Come
To the end of the road
Still I can't let go
It's unnatural
You belong to me
I belong to you

Girl, I'm here for you
All those time at night
When you just hurt me
And just ran out with that other fella
Baby I knew about it
I just didn't care
You just don't understand how much I love you do you
I'm here for you

I'm not about to go out on cheat you
(Maybe I'll forgive you)
Just like you did
But baby that's alright
I love you anyway
(Maybe you will try)
And I'm still going to be here with you until my dying day baby
(We should be happy together forever)
Right now
I'm just in so much pain
Cuz you just won't come back to me
(You and I)
Will you?
Just come back

(Lonely)
Yes baby, my heart is lonely
(Lonely)
My heart hurts baby
(Lonely)
Yes, I feel pain too
Baby please

This time instead just come to my bed
And baby just don't let me go

Although we've come
To the end of the road
Still I can't let go
It's unnatural
You belong to me
I belong to you

Come
To the end of the road
Still I can't let go
It's unnatural
You belong to me
I belong to you
Although we've come
To the end of the road
Still I can't let go
It's unnatural
You belong to me
I belong to you

Come
To the end of the road
Still I can't let go
It's unnatural
You belong to me
I belong to you

2009-11-25T01:39:00.002+08:00

Love isn’t about the romantic nights or gifts.
It isn’t about fireworks going off around you when you have that first real kiss.
Love isn’t about kissing in the rain and dancing beneath the stars.
It isn’t about the big moments or the big surprises.
Love is not a fairytale.

Love is about still having the butterflies after years.

It’s about the second looks and laying in bed wide awake, all night, because you can’t go to sleep mad at each other.

It’s about being willing to sacrifice, literally, everything for someone, just because you care so deeply for them.

It’s not about buying them gifts, but it’s about leaving them little presents here and there, just to remind them that you are constantly thinking about them.

Love is about all of the little things, that add up to really big things.

Love is rare and special, but should not be treated as if it will break.

Love needs to be thrown around and beat up a little bit, worn in, but not worn down.

Love needs to be a comfortable feeling, a place to go when no one else in the world can relate.

A safe place, where you know that no matter how ugly you look or how angry you are, you will still be loved.

So now do you know what is L O V E

then L u s t will come naturally ... ;)

2009-11-23T00:12:00.003+08:00

ADAM LAMBERT ... u deserve more credits for ur talent.

this past week has been a hectic week for me
a mixture of both good and bad
i lost some and gain some

no one would ever wanna feel like me
just put up all these songs into one big emotion!
guess wad ... i'm messed up

but then again who isn't
we all will be fine
its a matter of time

like JAY Z rihanna and kanye would say >>>

its like an equation
life is
and this is the result
rappers are poets in disguise
rappers are poets with style

lyrics:

Feel it comin' in the air
see me the sreets from everywhere
I'm addicted to the thrill (addicted yes i am still)
It's a dangerous spooky man
Can't be scared when it goes down (i know the consequences)
Got a problem, tell me now (i dun give a fuck wad u think)
Only thing that's on my mind
Is who's gonna run this town tonight...
Is who's gonna run this town tonight...
We gonna run this town

[Verse 1 - Jay-Z]

We are
Yeah I said it
We are
This is Roc Nation
Pledge your allegiance
Get y'all fatigues on
All black everything
Black cards, black cars
All black everything
And our girls are blackbirds
Ridin' with they dillingers
I'd get more in Depth
If you boys really real enough
This is la familia
I'll explain later
But for now let me get back to this paper
I'm a couple bands down and I'm tryin' to get back
I gave the other grip, I lost a flip for five stacks
Yeah I'm talkin' five comma
Six zeros
Dot zero
Here it go...
Back to runnin' circles 'round white folks
Now we fired up
Hold up

[Chorus - Rihanna]

Life's a game but it's not fair
I break the rules so I don't care
So I keep doin' my own thing
Walkin' tall against the rain
Victory's within the mile
Almost there, don't give up now
Only thing that's on my mind
Is who's gonna run this town tonight
Heeeey-hey-hey-hey-hey-heyyy
Hey-heyyy-hey-hey-heyy
Heeeey-hey-hey-hey-hey-heyyy
(Is who's gonna run this town tonight)
Hey-hey-hey-heyyy

[Verse 2 - Jay-Z]

We are
Yeah I said it
We are
You can call me C's r
In a dark Cigar
Please follow the lea-der
So Eric B. we are
Microphone fiend
It's the return of thee God
Peace God...
(Auh! Auh! )
And ain't nobody fresher
I'm in Mason
(Ah! )
Martin Margiela
On the tape we're screamin'
what its the other side, they jealous
We got a bankhead full of broads(?)
They got a table full of fellas... (?)
And they ain't spending no cake
They should throw they hand in
'Cause they ain't got no spades...
My whole team got dough
So my bankhead is lookin' like millionaire's 'fro

[Chorus - Rihanna]

Life's a game but it's not fair
I break the rules so I don't care
So I keep doin' my own thing
Walkin' tall against the rain
Victory's within the mile
Almost there, don't give up now
Only thing that's on my mind
Is who's gonna run this town tonight
Heeeey-hey-hey-hey-hey-heyyy
Hey-heyyy-hey-hey-heyy
Heeeey-hey-hey-hey-hey-heyyy
(Is who's gonna run this town tonight)
Hey-hey-hey-heyyy

[Verse 3 - Kanye West]

It's crazy how you can go from being Joe Blow
To everybody on your dick, no homo
I bought my whole family whips, no Volvos
Next time I'm in church, please no photos (crowd who would want to take pics of you)
Police escorts
Everybody passports
This the life that everybody ask for
This a fast life
We are on a crash course
What you think I rap for
To push a RAV4 forward?
But I know that if I stay stun-ting
All these girls only gonna want one thing
I could spend my whole life good will hun-ting
Only good gon' come is as good when I'm cumm-ing
She got a ass that'll swallow up a g-string
And up top, unh...
Two bee stings
And I'm beasting
Off the riesling
And my nigga just made it out the precinct
We give a damn about the drama that your dude bring
I'm just tryin' to change the color on your mood ring
Reebok
Baby
You need to drop some new things
Have you ever had shoes without shoe strings?
What's that 'Ye?
Baby, these heels
Is that a may?
What!
Baby, these wheels
You trippin' when you ain't sippin'
Have a refill
You trippin' when you runnin', huh?
Now you know how we feel

[Outro - Rihanna]

We gonna run this town tonight!

then its always sth for u to hold on too and someone acts like ur saviour...
i'll be dead without her...you save my life B2 ... i dunno how else to thank you ...
so here goes.. the video of the song you dedicate to us..

i dun care wad others say
ILOVEUANDTHEWAYULOVEME.

tho this is wrong
tell me since when did i say i wan anything to be perfect
all i want is to be happy..
u make me happy.

this video says everything
inside my heart
who i am
wad i feel this very minute
and my future inspiration

2009-11-20T13:09:00.002+08:00

For you I was a flame
Love is a losing game
Five story fire as you came
Love is a losing game

Why do I wish I never played
Oh what a mess we made
And now the final frame
Love is a losing game

Played out by the band
Love is a losing hand
More than I could stand
Love is a losing hand

Self professed... profound
Till the chips were down
...know you're a gambling man
Love is a losing hand

Though I'm rather blind
Love is a fate resigned
Memories mar my mind
Love is a fate resigned

Over futile odds
And laughed at by the gods
And now the final frame
Love is a losing game

---------------------------------

thank you for nth

there was never a begining
there was never an ending
there was never us

forget we ever met
forget we ever loved
we were blinded

now we're both a mess...

1101 days wasted ....

i dunno how many days i have left...
this is a mistake i want
never to happen again,
never to be remembered,
never to be reminded.

2009-11-16T06:03:00.001+08:00

i'll love you always...
goodbye...sunshine...

my love 4 you

2009-08-22T01:49:00.002+08:00

The one you shouldn't hurt at all
You always take the sweetest rose
And crush it till the petals fall
You always break the kindest heart
With a hasty word you can't recall
So If I broke your heart last night
It's because I love you most of all

i'm yours

2009-07-14T01:31:00.002+08:00

there are times you just sit down and wonder about things around you

love hate
happines sadness
needs and wants

these are the days i love
where i sit down and day dream
ponder and wonder
at times i write them down
most of the times only i know

and there are the days you need to face reality
tho you want not too
there are days you feel loved
and hate many
there are moments of happiness
but days of sadness

have you ever wonder why is this so
i find it beautiful
all this flaws of life
all this imperfections of the world
and learning to appreciate it and make the best of it

i know this may seem like a random post
but every line
theres a meaning and events that happen to me that
even if i write every detail only i can understand

so this is what you should know
and this is as much i am willing to share
the rest is kept in my heart
where it is more precious place for precious thoughts and delicate feelings

just know i'm yours ... as long as you believe in it

2009-06-25T04:17:00.001+08:00

IT'S SO HARD TO SAY GOODBYE TO YESTERDAY

How do I say goodbye to what we had?
The good times that made us laugh
Outweigh the bad.

I thought we'd get to see forever
But forever's gone away
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.

I don't know where this road
Is going to lead
All I know is where we've been
And what we've been through.

If we get to see tomorrow
I hope it's worth all the wait
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.

And I'll take with me the memories
To be my sunshine after the rain
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.

And I'll take with me the memories
To be my sunshine after the rain
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.

in memories of BIANCA... for everyone who knows her even for a while and to those who went through a lot with her... for her families and friends...

1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you

2008-11-16T00:46:00.002+08:00

i know its gg to be difficult
i know it hurts a lot
only time will show
and jus know

that i wan you to be happy
no matter wad happens
i wan to make you happy again
i love you and care for you ..

i know you hate the things i did
i understand it ..
just give us time
we'll heal

and now

there is only one thing to do and 3 words for you

i love YOU!!!!!

whole of my life is memories of you and me and no one else

2008-11-10T14:56:00.000+08:00

2008-11-10T14:29:00.000+08:00

yeah
2nd year anniversary
we made it
through ups and downs

you were still by my side
no matter wad the situation is
you listen to me and gave me advice
like a true friend

you even asked me to focus on my goal
when you did not realise your sacrifice
is beyond any human kind ability
you are my true angel

i never would want this to ever end
i have made a right decision
and i hope you would be the same
i thank you for all the things you've done for me

forgive me for hurting you
i was not myself and i was crazy
i dun mind ppl to call me names
i dun care of wad others might say

all i care is now is that i have you
i will be giving my all to you
i remember my promise to you
and i'll keep that engraved in my heart

i love the way you love me
happy 2nd year anniversary
hope it will be forever
i hope you like my presents

hehe

2008-11-10T01:34:00.000+08:00

hope to be forgiven is not the matter
as long one knows they are truly sorry

and i'm truly am

night
-------------------------

to the lovers and the heartbreakers

2008-11-09T03:55:00.000+08:00

this is an old song
a song which started my love with sunshine
the sacrifices i did
and i know for all those lovers out there
whose hurt by heartbreakers
and this is for heartbreakers who
have no idea what lovers go thru

when you start to realise
that is when its too late
and i've jus realised
that i can only tear and cry for one person
and she knows she is loved by me .. and made for me
ass oui ant ass hetch aii ant eee
hahaha
NOT FUNNIEEE

and baby i wan the jeep after i finish my driving liciense with you ...

oh you gotta watch this video tillfinish!!!

NOT FUNNIEE!!!

why so serious ...

2008-10-29T02:50:00.000+08:00

Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
call I'm desperate for your voice
I'm listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet

I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Stripped and pollished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Because every breath that you will take
while you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?

I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
x4
( I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
( I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

me to fk ^

fk to me ~>

Didn't you want to hear
the sound of all the places we could go
Do you fear
the expressions on the faces we don't know
It's a cold hard road when you wake up
and I don't think that I
Have the strength to let you go

Maybe it's just me, Couldn't you believe
that everything I said and did, wasn't just deceiving
And the tear in your eye, and your calm hard face
makes me wish that I was never brought into this place

There goes my ring
It might as well have been shattered
and I'm here to sing
about the things that mattered
about the things that made us feel alive for oh so long
about the things that kept you on my side when I was wrong

Maybe it's just me, Couldn't you believe
that everything I said and did, wasn't just deceiving
And the tear in your eye, and your calm hard face
makes me wish that I was never brought into this place

And someday, I promise I'll be gone
And someday, I might even sing this song
To you, I might even sing this song, to you
and I was crying alone tonight
and I was wasting all of my life just thinking of you
So just come back we'll make it better
So Just come back I'll make it
better than it ever was x2

Maybe it's just me, Couldn't you believe
that everything I said and did, wasn't just deceiving
And the tear in your eye, and your calm hard face
makes me wish that I was never brought into this place

Maybe it's just me, Couldn't you believe
that everything I said and did, wasn't just deceiving
And the tear in your eye, and your calm hard face
makes me wish that I was never brought into this place
( I want it all, Don't leave right now)
(I'll give you everything)

2008-10-26T13:19:00.000+08:00

fk u me

2008-10-23T02:40:00.000+08:00

for you.. fk u me . period.

2008-10-23T02:20:00.000+08:00

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,

I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

i never wanted it this way. just remember that if one day we cross each others paths. i hope we could sit down and catch up.

till then.. i'm here for you.

our story

2008-10-22T02:53:00.000+08:00

Thank u for this moment
I gotta say how beatuiful you are
Of all the hops and dreams I could have prayd for
Here you are
If I could have one dance for ever

I would take you by the hand
Tonight it’s you and I together
Im so glad I’m your man

And if i lived a thousen years you know
I’d never could explain
The way I lost my heart to you that day
But if destiny desided I should look the other way
Then the world would never know
The greatest story ever told
And did I tell you that I love you to night

I don’t hear the music when I’m looking in you eyes
But I feal the rythem on you body close to mine
It’s the way we touth that’s sends me
It’s the way we’ll always be here
Your kiss your pretty smile you know I die for
Oh baby your all I need

And if i lived a thousen years you know
I’d never could explain
The way I lost my heart to you that day
But if destiny desided I should look the other way
Then the world would never know
The greatest story ever told
And did I tell you that I love you just how mutch I realy need you
Did I tell you that I love you tonight

tonight

And if i lived a thousen years you know
I’d never could explain
The way I lost my heart to you that day
But if destiny desided I should look the other way
Then the world would never know
The greatest story ever told
And did I tell you that I love you just how mutch I realy need you
Did I tell you that I love you tonight

2008-10-22T02:34:00.000+08:00

Strophe:
I sit and wait
Does an angel contemplate my fate
And do they know the places where we go

When we're grey and old
'Cos I've been told
That salvation lets their wings unfold
So when I'm lying in my bed
Thoughts running through my head
And I feel that love is dead
I'm loving angels instead

Chor:
And through it all,She offers me protection
A lot of love and affection
Wether I'm right or wrong

Strophe:
And down the waterfall, wherever it may take me
I know that life won't break me
When I come to call she won't forsake me
I'm loving angels instead

When I'm feeling weak
And my pain walks down a one way street
I look above and I know
I'll always be blessed with love
And as the feeling grows
She breathes flesh to my bones
And when love is dead
I'm loving angels instead

Chor:
And through it all,She offers me protection
A lot of love and affection
Wether I'm right or wrong

Chor:
And through it all,She offers me protection
A lot of love and affection
Wether I'm right or wrong.

this is for the feelings i have right now.

why am i like this

2008-09-13T02:04:00.000+08:00

have you asked yourself why you are what you are?

i just thought about it.
why am i working here?
what am i doing here?
what would i want to be ?
what fo i want to achieve?
is it who i am?
is this what i am going to be ?

i dream of a different life.
a life with no worries
wake up man that will never happen. in this world of nothings. this is just a stop over before the real shipment of death comes and everyone gathers together on judgement day.

a stopover seems to be long man. i dont know why are we all tested on earth for. isn't it easier if we were never created and skip tis stopover bullshit. then world will never be destroyed by us and we wont destoy each other.

seem to deep my thoughts went. oh wells. its just the aimless thoughts i have these days. and i have been thinking about it for quite a while. it sound disturbing really. like a suicide note. its not that i don't appreciate life that has been given to me. but life it self is a hard job man. to live day in day out to work and get paid and spent the money on journeys to work by MRT and buses. sigh all the money earn from the hard work 1/3 goes to my mum 1/6 of my pay goes to my savings ( which i dunno what its for anyway if i die tmr i wont get to taste it but others will). seems like i work not for the money but for time to pass and for me to grow older and wiser. my hopes of gaining wise knowledge in life and be rich and healthy and fit and most of all happy.

i'm not feeling happy now. now not even you can make me happy much. i just feel so mundane and its getting bored now life. i am doing the same things if not getting my liciense and try to find a suitable school for myself to get degree on something i might not even like. GAWD DAMN IT!!! i hate typical people and yet i'm part of them!!! i hate my life for what it is. i love the girls and flirting but that thrill last less then a few seconds and sleeping becomes my best friend. days past like no ones business and i'm not making full use of it. its tiring. i wish i could be my old self.

the nash that flatters her ego and have friends from all different courses in TP and smoke at reservoir and skip classes and plays sport and get mad with the other team for playing dirty and rough. i love flirting harmlessly for it makes me happy to know you're happy too. i hate this now. i wish i was schooling forever. minus the exams of course. i wish to see the world and travel back packing i wish you would go with me and not be fussy but spontaneous and happy and adventurous. !

that it! i lost the feeling of adventure in my life
i want it back
i don't care if its traveling adventure
love adventure
or night life adventure!
i want to hurt myself by doing things that can make me feel worst than i ever felt.

i dont want to numb myself anymore. i wanna feel something anything fuck!! pain happy sad high .... lost or wadever you know just not the normal stuff ... its killing me now to know my life is boring.

is your life boring.
?

you know or not

2008-08-25T01:50:00.000+08:00

she waited for me for an hour
you know
it was raining cats and dogs
but she waited for me
under my block
you know or not ?

she so adorable at times
you know
i can't even be angry at her
she so cute even my mother
takes her as a real daughter
you know or not ?

but my heart melts each time
i see her tears
you know or not ?

even my brother loves her

she is already my family
she still is the one i love
scandal smandals
that can wait or never

how can i
retribution is fast
it goes str8 up
even your ass
wont have time to fart finish

heh

so yeah man

you know or not ?

that i love her
that i'm hers
that she loves me
that she's my baby

her tummy
pain pain
you know
or not?

A lil something of every memories

2008-08-17T11:31:00.000+08:00

the moments of us together is unforgettable and it still lingers on till now. we've been together through ups and downs. and the best part of it all is that i'm not yet tired of you. spoiling you with my love and baby talk... haha only with me you can do that. i promise marissa i'll take care of you. now that she is in aussie, baby jus know that i'll still take care of you even if your heart is not for me anymore- love your angel always---

the thoughts of you even when you're not with me and how hot i look in the picture. like the lead singer paul mcartney in the beatles

my princess, my sunshine, my baby mountain gorilla, my baby gundu, my hot shakira, my mariah carey, my heart , my body, my soul,,,,,,,,,, my love.....

this is non other than that little brother of mine. even with so little resemblance, we are closer now than ever. we talk about everything. for the first time i realise that i left him out of my life for quite some time. now already 18 and tall and handsome. he now also have a first official girlfriend!! sarah!! very high standard he have. all his other flings and girls that have waited for him all is left heartbroken... what can i say it runs in the family... WE ARE THE HEART BREAKERS!! - oh yeah the skinny black tie is mine! that is why he looks good..

oh ya the only thing about us that is simillar is that we have the sweetest tongue and sexy droopy eyes... the Mc Dreamy eyes girls... okok
enough of boasting my brothers balls ...
oh oh this is the calon calon of the you know if i were to have a scandal with. a one time thing maybe.. oh who knows ... it will never happen la ... jus saying .. maybe..
how to even get another scandal or even get angry at her if she gets a scandal...my heart very weakness is non other than my baby... just look at her ... melts anyones heart

her 20th birthday... just like chocolates... our relationship has been bitter sweet ... but creamy and such an indulgence that cana blow anyone's mind away..

I
LOVE
YOU

the kind hearted girl, humble my arrogant heart and made me a better person already. makes me closer to my family and heals all my hatred for the world. she is the actual healer of my heart, body and soul. how can i possibly live without her. so baby no doubt i'll be so willingly stay your bestfriend even after all has ended.... so don't worry k ( maybe after i M.I.A. for a short while? )

lazy to turn it upright. but that my nieces and nephews and they are all my favourite ... mmm ok lar the centre one is my fav. what can i say ... we are the 2nd child syndrome club ...hehe

that not Paul McCartney BUT Nash McDreamy! ahhahah the one beside me is my older brother. his face like mafia... yeah he always is angry.. only i can read his mind ... erm inside his mind is ... er... NOTHING! kosong... hahaha okok i don't wanna be mean but seriously its not that bad you know... to have nothing on your mind rather than worry all the time...

GEE - U - R - U!!! can't help himself but take pic with my phone ! thank god i snatch it away before he fill 90% of my galleries of himself... VERY VAIN!!! POT!! heh i still love him lar ... wad to do all my handsome ness went to him so yeahh he must always thank me k!

see bored to the max we smoke lar ... nash mcdreamy also dreaming of wolverine when wanna come out !! damsel in distress don't feel like she wants wolverine anymore .... so now i become batman tengah merajuk....

my lil brother!! again!! see!! wad i tell you a replica of the most vain pot ppl in the world ...he use to not like people taking his photograph.. but now so handsone already even my mother is in love with him lar ... ok la not in that sense lar but he the most loved lar... ok stop it with the singlish ... and dots... heh
he is my mum's trophy and the one that can make my mother so angry and laugh and happy and sad all at the same time
he is my mum's reason for living on and his love for my mum makes my mum stronger.
and because of this i'm sparing his lifeeven when he irritates me like hell and i feel like strangling him .. so yeah you better appriciate that wolverine spare your life k!!

oh yeah we are batman and robin !!

the wedding its ok ..

and i know my cousin he has changed. from the gangster the don...he is now a husband and like my late step father he is now a prime mover driver.. he has a big future. i always believe you don't have to be rich to be rich... you just need to have the heart of gold...

oh ya i jus found out that my great great great grandfather is ajis sultan muda in some part of indonesia last time before they migrate to malaysia and after that singapore. so yeah i dunno wher ethe wealth has gone too but i know i have a royal blood. and its true whether or not you wanna believe it ... i am not trying to prove anything but jus now i realise how precious family history is and how wealth is not everything ...

ok done. 5 day entries in one entry
happy baby!!

Just fuck it and get it done and over with

2008-08-17T08:28:00.000+08:00

just fuck it babe
and get it done
and over with it

thats my motto for this period
don't bother asking me why

oh wells

i was talking to her and she says that now she feels so comfortable with me to even have a scandal. oh wells what am i to say to that cos i too feel the same way. its not that we don't get it on with each other. the wolverine in bed is still alive and strong. its just this point of time where everything is now a standstill and nothing could be much nicer that to add a little bit of spice into it and maybe fire. i would love to have that jealous feeling again. serious shit man come to think of it ... i have someone in mind and she said she also have some one in mind. I still am half hearted. What if questions start popping in my head and i just rather not even think about it.

i love you baby
even if i have to lose you
let me lose you to a better person

if i'm not good enough
hell yeah
go have fun and
fcuk around k

you got my blessing
so jus
fcuk it
and get it done
and over with

i love you more even with you thinking like this
am i crazy
oh what can i say
i'm crazy to fall in love
but i'm smart to have chosen to fall for you...

------------
now i'm in my boxers and shirt. i was half way to work but realise (too late) that i'm not suppose to work in the morning but at night. lazy me had to go back home and so got breakfast for family and her favourite sausage mcmuffin with extra cheese. the last time i overslept and forget to buy for her that. she came over my house and literally sat on me. i did not get what i was hoping for. the moral of the story is that you must not forget to get sausage mcmuffin b4 11am cos if not ... you can forget about breakfast in bed ...if you know what i mean...

cos after 11am its lunch what ... ok lame oh what to do
she complains my blog is boring. so here i am blogging all i can remember that i am suppose to blog everyday in one entry. so this is considered short for a summary of 5 or more days of entry.

my cousins wedding is nice. missed the nikah part but get to wish him congrats and ate a lot of brownies..yum!

that's all for now.
for more pictures. later k
now have to run errands FuCK!

2008-08-02T23:53:00.000+08:00

friday night was suppose to be the night.
but hARDrock cafe sucks so much now so please don't bother k.

after which went to THE ARENA at clarke quay.

arena DJ EMI my long lost friend from kindergarten and family friend. Thanks to her we got in to arena without any hassle and had fun. at last the real party.

ever got the feeling that you thought you know but actually you don't .
should catch up with you when you're not spinning.

i also have a nice time with you baby you know that you make my heart melt even when i try so hard to push you away..

love to be loved

by

just

you

-----by the way mummy three rock s!!!----

2008-07-31T00:52:00.000+08:00

yes its me

love and lust

my motto now ... i guess

tired and bored

why is it that i feel empty i know you have asked me to go out and hang out with others but what if the only people i would love to hang out now have a full hand and aplenty of others they can hang out with and i am alone again without you by my side i'm bored without and explanation i just cant seem to want to do anything else not even iron my heap and heap of clean clothes

i am angry with you and you know it so well but well enough to know it and you slept through it without any care to how i am feeling why is it you just have this limit of being bothered about me

its like you just know i would come back and hug you and kiss you and caress you no matter how angry you already make me and well you love the make out sessions after all this crap

i am feeling so not horny right now to even think of the future make up / out session
i don't fucking care anymore

you want love
you have to have lust
you want lust
you will definitely have to love

baby come get me...

2008-05-21T02:33:00.000+08:00

this is the sunshine that brightens my life
i need not worry of anything with her by my side
for the first time in my life i forget how to cheat on love
i lost track of time and feel that we just met each other
she held me up no matter how many times i failed her
she see the world in me and makes me feel a life
without her i dunno how i'd survive
maybe i could but definitely will have a really rough journey
i wanna thank her for everything she have done
i love you always and
will always love you.

2007-10-06T14:01:00.001+08:00

me and mcdreamy nashy...

at delifrance.. with my baby

MUACKS!!1 FOR MY NASHY BABY!

LOOK INTO THIS PIC AND MESMERIZE

WHERE IS MY ANGEL...

MY MCDREAMY IN DREAM LAND ..

MY MCDREAMY AT KFC HAHA

last but not least ..

look at the hot serious mcdreamy of mine....

i.l.o.v.e. y.o.u.

\Y.A.N.I/

\~ur~/

\s.u.n.s.h.i.n.e./

my mcdreamy love life ...its only the begining and ...

there will be no end....

i love you ...

my only life

2007-09-29T23:17:00.000+08:00

my life is blissful . .
because of y.o.u.

2007-06-15T21:14:00.000+08:00

LOST

i'm lost
don't know what i am gg to do now
i've finished poly
and now working is the only answer for now

i don't have any idea what i wanna be
i don't have any idea what i am gg to be
i don't know what i want

and i am starting to think life is a crap

i watch the matrix all three of them

and i tot maybe what if this life we are leading are all crap'
computer programmed for us
our brain and tots and action have all been programmed

we are actually living for nth

ok i'm getting a lil carried away
so what if its true .... i dun even wan to be like NEO
flying in the sky and dodge bulltes or stop them
i guess what i think is right about the movie is when they say we all have a choice

i guess its true.... we all have a choice to live in a boring life where u spend ur pay in the first week
or have a stagnant life with no ups or down

forget about pretence to be happy .... come on ppl!
we all know that we are pretending to be happy
and why is that so!?

well iits cos life is too short to be all angry and life is too short to go asking WHY!!! ALL THE FREAKING TIME

so lets stop asking qns
and just believe that life has meaning
and we made the choice to be happy (or pretend to be)

as for me i think right now ... i'm talking all crap
why cos i read too many of ppl livejournals and blogs
and reading about other ppl's live make u think about ur own

i guess for me i'm just scared of change
like cancer (crab) we hide in our shell (hermit crab )
i guesss i'm a hermit crab..i hide when there is change

and right now i'm gg thru a big change from being a student
to completely a working adult and i took a really big responsibility job role
why !? i dunno
and it requires me to be everything that is not me!
how the fuck am i gg to change to all that !!!
i HATE THIS!! but i know somehow or another
i'll go thru all this just fine

how? oh well i live my life a day at a time
i dun care how many days i have yet left to live...
all i care is the day that i'm living and living it (not to the fullest cos if u live everyday too the fullest at the end of the day ur gg to be drained out ) so i'm gg to live my life the way i like it to be

all i know is that meeting my baby SUNSHINE is the best thing ever happen to me...
creates more spice in my life...
damn it ... all i know is that my life till today ever since i met her never been a dreadful no purpose day ...

at least i know i'll be hugging her or she feeding me from her bare hands ...
that small moments make my day fullest alr
hah

oh wtf
no matter how lost i am rite now
not knowing how i'm gg to cope in a new working environment
or what i am gg to do with my life...
all i know is that i have my baby sunshine to look forward too

i live my life by the day

first i'll save money to repair aircon
second save to buy new bigger bed

hmmm somehow my focus is always in the bed and my room lately
i wanna make my room look new
even refurnish some parts and putting in tv of desktop in my room
oh wells

ROOM first
then other stuff like maybe nicer phone for me and her
then liciense car n bike
then either ask my aunt to migrate and give me her car and house
or buy bike for transport sake

sigh GILERA? maybe ....i dunno

too many things

i wonder if i gg back to studying
i wan to get degree before turning 25 or 30 ?

i dunno sigh!!!!

oh fuck lost....nvm

2007-06-02T15:45:00.000+08:00

Im sorry tt I’ve been such a pain recently. Forgive me? And I guess you love me just too much. I think these lyrics are exactly what you feel. sorry baby. –sunshine-
That’s how much I love you
That’s how much I need you
And I can’t stand ya
Must everything you do
make me wanna smile
Can I not like it for awhile

You know exactly what to do
So that I can’t stay mad at you
For too long, that’s wrong

And you completely know the power that you have
The only one that makes me laugh

Sad and it’s not fair how you take advantage of the fact that I
Love you beyond the reason why
And it just ain’t right

And I hate how much I love you girl
I can’t stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you girl
But I just can’t let you go
And I hate that I love you so

One of these days maybe your magic won’t affect me

And your kiss won’t make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you’ll probably always have a spell on me.

And I hate that I love you so.. so..

you gave me this ...melts me rock stone heart baby.... i love you always k...

2007-06-02T15:43:00.000+08:00

i hate that i love you so much baby
but i wun wan anything to change
except for the love to grow stronger

thank you for everything baby...

2007-05-22T01:21:00.000+08:00

time is limited so make full use of it.

before you lose the precious thing in life ....it will be to late to regret

i love you baby ....

thanks for always being there for me .... its more than 6 mths now we are tog

nth makes my day brigther than the smile of my only baby sunshine

i'm working... and still wanna work ...studies will come next after a period of working experience

and i have not met up with many of my old frens for a very very long time ...

wonder how you guys are, hope you are all doing well ....

and hey my goals are diff now....

i've achieved most of my goals now

i have completed my diploma within 3 yrs

even after so much slacking and rocking the house

ahahaha

i have gotten myself a fulltime job

i have started helping my mum paying house bills

i have completed probation so now i'm free and clean

i've learn so much within my working experience in jus three mths...

i can seem to wait what lies for me

but at the same time i dun wanna noe...cos the mysteries jus makes me shiver....

well thats life ...i'll learn to take it in my sttride and walk on ...

love life is wonderful now...
career life not satisfying BUT staable enough

new goals would be to continue to love you more

get good position in career

get car and motor liciense with own money

then ... con't mmy studies

then ... dunno ... get bike or car? hahaha

well i guess main thing is i wan to have a balance life...

a balance in love, family , work and play ....

average life but hey i have higher aims....but thats for me to know ...

shy lar ....hahahah okok

oh yea .... please dun tag if you wan to be UNKNOWN cos whats the point of tagging.... mite as well be wad you are called > unknown ...meaning i DO NOT!!! wanna KNOW!!! heh ;)

SO YEAH nites

2007-03-03T13:25:00.000+08:00

aku ingin engkau selalu
hadir dan temani aku
disetiap langkah
yang meyakiniku
kau tercipta untukku
meski waktu akan mampu
memanggil seluruh ragaku
ku ingin kau tahu
ku selalu milikmu
yang mencintaimu
sepanjang hidupku

2007-03-02T16:11:00.000+08:00

untuk cahaya matahari tersayang

2007-02-14T00:55:00.001+08:00

for valentine day

i had a GREAT TIME!!!

hahaha

ok eve of valentine celebrated with sunshine

a beautiful evening indeed

my first time celebrating valentin with someone i love....

its special not cos i made it special

but cos u are special to me

perfect dinner

perfect setting

perfect moments

i hope it will stay with you forever baby

sigh....

-except for having your lil bro interupting...what to do when your bro is single and infatuated with my sunshine -

[ my lil bro like cute girls like you ! heh ]

but he cannot have you! hmmpff!

send you home and the bus came at the right timing

wad could be better... nite skys fill with stars

and having you walking beside me ....

you made my life worth living

perfect ending

i pray that each day will be as beautiful as this ....

for valentine day all i wan is you and your love...

more than enough for me

i'll be
the angel of your heart always baby

2007-02-11T12:47:00.000+08:00

hey ppl been so long since i last update about my life

now i am free from poly life ....

i have a few plans i need to do now...first getting a job
then apply for uni jus for the fun of it
then wait for the graduation ceremony

heh

sigh life is gonna be so bored

after 1st may 2007

i'll be totally officially free

as for now i need to be patient
and wait for that day

oh wells....on the very last project presentation
i met farhana and had lunch with her and her frens

we took a few pictures but the best of them all was this

2007-02-04T23:46:00.000+08:00

I'd like to be the sort of angel
that you have been to me;
I'd like to be the help that
you've been always glad to be;

I'd like to mean as much to you
each minute of the day
As you have meant,
to me along the way.

I'd like to do the big things and
the splendid things for you,
To brush the gray from out your skies
and leave them only blue;

I'd like to say the kindly things that
I so often have heard,
And feel that I could rouse your soul
the way that mine you've stirred.

I'd like to give you back the joy
that you have given me,
Yet that were wishing you a need
I hope will never be;

I'd like to make you feel as rich as I,
who travel on
Undaunted in the darkest hours with you to
lean upon.

I'm wishing at this time that I
could but repay
A portion of the gladness that
you've strewn along my way;

And could I have one wish
this only would it be:
I'd like to be the sort of angel
that you have been wishing for

sunshine....

2007-01-30T01:49:00.000+08:00

Cause you mean the world to me
You are my everything
I swear the only thing that matters
Matters to me
Oh baby, baby, baby, baby,
Baby, cause you mean so much
To me

2007-01-30T01:16:00.000+08:00

tell me when will you be mine
tell me quando quando quando
we can share a love divine
please don't make wait again

when will you say yes to me
tell me quando quando quando
you mean happiness to me
oh my love please tell me when

every moments ...a day
everyday seems like a lifetime
let me show you the way
to a joy beyond compare

i can't a moment more
tell me quando quando quando
just say its me that you adore
and then darling tell me when

- i now know what you mean... however i would sing you this song each nite till that very day-

lovers ...we are...

2007-01-27T01:13:00.000+08:00

where do we go now?

pain
screaming, shouting, running
living things feel it
suffering under silent nights
understanding is never asked for
never asked anything
that is impossible
like the sun
getting burn till turn into ashes
blown by the wind
into the emptiness space
not a single spec of dust
left for memories.....

never should have even tot of the impossible
you were never mine and never will be

-"nothing last forever" i guess "nothing" is the best for us-

2007-01-02T09:04:00.000+08:00

i am posting at last

happy new year everybody!!!

well do you believe that i dun go out on new year eve to celebrate with the masses?
instead i will stay at home or go to my cuz house and party like a small gathering.
boring la but anything to escape the crowds

well this year is an exception.
i went out to esplanande with sunshine to watch the fire works display
well we arrived on time to catch the first few fireworks at 11pm
then we waited for midnight.

so there is ppl gg around spraying the bottles spray at ppl.
so we were jus trying to avoid being a victim of it.
well we succeeded. but not for the bangladeshi ppl....they were attacked by a bunch of groups of ah bengs with sprays...some even attack non stop till the poor fellow is pushed to a corner and their eyes filled and covered with foam....

RACIST!!

well sunshine hated it. first time i see her getting worked up about sth.

well we also get to see weird ppl. there is a group of ppl that will wear tight pants and vest and short sleeve shirt. all wearingsame color and all...black and whit theme. i think they look cool. but ridiculus....cos its so hot and some i think is the head of the gang wears coat. and they will stand in a circle and discuss...but they dun start any trouble tho. as far as i know.

this is the video of the fireworks display countdown 2006 in Singapore!!! at esplanade with my sunshine!!

my first time gg out on new year's eve to watch fireworks and its with you.
i start my year with you. hope things are gg to be for the better.

-my first kiss of the year. with sunshine. in cab to my home.-1.07am,01 jan 2007

my fav song this year is!!>> by christina aguilera!

sunshine's back

2006-12-26T05:46:00.000+08:00

she is back at last
miss her like crazy
past few days been raining
but when she came back
it rain less and was sunny

its a sign

heh

i am living permanantly at seng kang now

yup i am like a nomad
moving from sengkang to yishun and back to seng kang again

well sengkang is my real home
but its sad cos i'm far away from her
school nearer

but still i'm left with 2 mths b4 i am on my own in the working world

its either i work and take private uni
or apply full time uni and work part time

help me choose

work in reader's digest
or

airport police

i prefer reader's digest

but sigh
dunno dunno

for now i cant even sit and do my SIP report and its x'mas alr!!!\

jan 3rd is the due date
oh freaking kill me ar !!

shites

-i saw u at the airport
cant help but say hi

hi and hope u are not mad i said hi...i miss you-

2006-12-19T19:10:00.000+08:00

i'm at home
cramps all over
stupid NAPHA
got gold even without 2.4 km run
but it rained
so we have to retake in jan 15 2007

thanks k
serious!

i have tons of projects and have a shorter time to complete them
i dunno how i am gg to do it
last sem
and i wanna graduate
but part of me wish i did not have too

so i dun have to worry about my allowance
about work
about my life

oh freak...i'm so zoned out when i think of what i wanna do after i grad from TP

dun ask!

crap crap crap!!!

she's in KL with family. holiday till this thurs...

god its tuesday only!!! sigh....

my lil bro got his n-level results
he cant take o-level
but he's gg ITE
and i'm proud of him
cos he did better than i expexted!

i'm here for you lil bro

( and bloody hell better pay back k! heh i'm alr so broke la)

oh wells other than that i'm feeling great...

-its raining cos sunshine went for holiday-

2006-12-19T18:54:00.000+08:00

you made me listen to this song....

-'Cause I'm falling, falling

Girl, I'm falling for you

And I pray you're falling too

I've been falling, falling-

http://www.lyricsbox.com/n-sync-lyrics-falling-bonus-track-gj2ft77.html

here's a video that depicts our special moments.

and this is for you baby....

-And i will take you in my arms
And hold you right where you belong
'til the day my life is through
This I Promise You..This I Promise You... -

http://www.lyricsbox.com/n-sync-lyrics-this-i-promise-you-cdp7cdz.html

2006-12-19T17:57:00.000+08:00

missing the rendevous
missing the walks in the rain
missing the hugss
missing the kisses
missing the moments
missing the nigths
missing the talks
missing the bites
missing the smiles
missing the puppy face
missing the touch

of my sunshine....

because of you by 98 degrees

i'm missing you

-all i ask for is you to come home safe and sound-

http://www.lyricsbox.com/degrees-lyrics-because-of-you-q8c9ncc.html

2006-12-14T00:43:00.000+08:00

REMEMBER OUR FIRST MOVIE.
AND MY FAV PART.
HEH

MUMBLES REMINDS ME OF....................me.

2006-12-13T08:03:00.000+08:00

DANCE TO THIS BABY.

i'm sorry i fell asleep. made you wait till 2 plus.

i am really sorry. i'll make it up to you k.

yay! i can crack my knuckles again!

2006-12-12T07:35:00.000+08:00

well this is very random... i just crack my knuckles. and it means that both fist are well equipped again. heh. well i know i have said that this blog is mainly on videos that roughly reflect wad i am feeling.

i will not differ from it but i would write more this time so it wun be so vague. and more ppl that read could relate to it.
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i am currently content with what ever is happening right now in my life.
- school : last semester to go! yay! i am so not gg to slack this time and make the mark [ hopefully i get thru]

-home affairs: well currently nth much. only the regular naggings of me playing with my TIME! my curfew. and that i have been quite "watched by an angel" and been really freaking "luc*y"
i wun wanna take it for granted.

my elder bro. the beloved. sigh i have nth much to say to you. but only this. no matter what happens...the blood run thro us siblings will never be severed by anything, nor heaven and earth could. i'll try my best, but only if you make an effort bro. i can't do it alone k. give me some slack will you. you are suppose to lead the whole family and now i have agreed to take the role... please stop giving me more crap than what i alr have.

-RUGBY!!!: GUESS WHAT MY SCHOOL TEAM GOT THE CHAMPION THIS YEAR!!! CONGRATS TO YA'LL AND ESPECIALLY TO MY BAtch YOUU ALL DESERVE THIS GOLD....YOU HAVE BEEN DREAMIN' OFF. THO IT WAS NOT AS THRILLING AS LAST YEARS POL-ITE GAMES. ITS THE MEMORIES THAT COUNTS AND ALL PAID OFF.

TPIRANHAS ROCKS!!!! NO ONE CAN BEAT US.... WE ARE FAR AWAY FROM ANYONES REACH.

PLEASE GUYS KEEP THIS UP. WE ARE THE NEW MAIN TARGET FOR EVERY OTHER SCHOOL. SO DUN SLACK AITE.

i still wanna play some last games with my batch please. old memories kept forever with you guys. please dun stray so far away after we grad. i know i always do but this time i really wanna keep in touch.

-relationship: current status SINGLE! but not looking. heh

well read between the lines and all my post.

*i got sunshine ....lalalalala*
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i am content to see that smile
nothing is to be afraid off
future is not in my hands
fate & destiny will decide

if this were to ever end
hope it ends beautifully
when u relive memories
hope it will all be good

when i'm being asked about
say not that "we had sth gg on"
praying it will leave an impact
that leave you in silence tears

-to my sunshine from your angel-

2006-12-10T14:51:00.000+08:00

Shayne Ward-No Promises

-Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love.
Every time you're near I feel like I’m in heaven, feeling high
I don’t want to let go, girl.
I just need you to know girl.-

baby i miss you so much--

http://www.lyrics.co.nz/06-5-10g.htm

2006-12-10T14:42:00.000+08:00

Girls Aloud - Ill Stand By You

baby you wanted to know who sing this song

well here you go baby...

i'll stand by you

wont let no one hurt u baby...

she said: i love the way i get so tensed up...

i dun wan to see you hurt by anyone ...what more by me...

2006-12-07T04:30:00.001+08:00

listen to this song...

dun it remind u of u baby?

lyrics

http://www.lyricstop.com/l/likeastar-corinnebaileyrae.html

2006-12-07T04:30:00.000+08:00

she said to me ....

2006-12-07T04:00:00.000+08:00

THE MOMENT YOU SAID....(4th dec 2006)

these words....

u soothe my heart...

-But I love the way you love me
Strong and wild, slow and easy
Heart and soul so completely
I love the way you love me-

lyrics: http://www.lyricsdomain.com/2/boyzone/i_love_the_way_you_love_me.html

i said ....

-And all this time that you’ve been waiting,
You don’t have to wait no more,
I can love you like that,
I would make you my world,
Move heaven and earth,
If you were my girl,
I would give you my heart,
Be all that you need,
Show you you’re everything that’s precious to me,
If you give me a chance,
I can love you like that, -

lyrics:http://www.angelfire.com/ns/sn79/icanloveyoulikethat

thanks-

2006-11-28T00:22:00.000+08:00

sometimes i dunno where i stand in all this
but all i want you to know is

And I'll be right behind your shoulder, watching you
I'll be standing by your side in all you do
And I won't ever leave
As long as you believe
You just believe

I'll make a wish for you
And hope it will come true
That life will just be kind
To such a gentle mind
If you lose your way
Think back on yesterday
Remember me this way

just hope one day
if u ever think back
in all your fun times
or hard times
think back
and remember me
that i am always here
for you

your angel---

THIS IS FOR MY SUNSHINE!

2006-11-20T02:23:00.000+08:00

Ordinary People

[Verse 1]

Girl im in love with you
This ain't the honeymoon
Past the infatuation phase
Right in the thick of love
At times we get sick of love
It seems like we argue everyday

[Bridge]

I know i misbehaved
And you made your mistakes
And we both still got room left to grow
And though love sometimes hurts
I still put you first
And we'll make this thing work
But I think we should take it slow

[Chorus]

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow

[Verse 2]

This ain't a movie no
No fairy tale conclusion ya'll
It gets more confusing everyday
Sometimes it's heaven sent
Then we head back to hell again
We kiss and we make up on the way

[Bridge]

I hang up you call
We rise and we fall
And we feel like just walking away
As our love advances
We take second chances
Though it's not a fantasy
I Still want you to stay

[Chorus]

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow

[Verse 3]

Take it slow
Maybe we'll live and learn
Maybe we'll crash and burn
Maybe you'll stay, maybe you'll leave,
maybe you'll return
Maybe another fight
Maybe we won't survive
But maybe we'll grow
We never know baby youuuu and I

[Chorus]

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Heyyy)
We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow

-------please READ the lyrics baby-----

i mean every single word i say
i mean every single thing i do
then, now and the times to come
each second i'm with you baby...

i am and ordinary humble human being
no words in any song could describe
how much you mean to me
so just give me each day to show
you the happiest days of your life

i ain't not going anywhere baby
cos even if i do wanna go anywhere
that would be where ever you go i wanna go

to you, my sunshine

from your angel with broken wings
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2006-11-09T00:31:00.000+08:00

08-09-06

its a nice and relaxing day...

its fun heh.

2006-11-08T00:49:00.000+08:00

-rivermaya- you'll be safe here

When nobody hears you scream

I’ll scream with you

You’ll be safe here

for: ppl who feel like screaming their lungs out ...like how i am feeling....

we'll go to wisma 8th floor to do it

and to those who are confused in matters of the heart...

its for you . k

here is the lyrics go read and u will understand...this is a must for ppl that is literally deaf...if not deaf than jus watch and listen to the video k...

http://www.lyricsandsongs.com/song/343725.html

this is for marissa...she likes this song...now i wonder why exactly...

hahaha

http://www.lyricsandsongs.com/song/637021.html

all over...again

2006-11-08T00:19:00.000+08:00

PLEASE you guys have to listen to THIS!

WATCH IT... acoustic live version...its really nice...

sigh and yeah it reflect on my mood...

and here is the lyrics

http://www.lyricsandsongs.com/song/169996.html

pour vous mon amour

2006-11-06T00:34:00.000+08:00

-JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE-MY LOVE-

1) listen to the lyrics

2) watch the smooth moves

wanna understand it deeper go read the lyrics...

http://www.lyricsandsongs.com/song/746489.html

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you should realise by now i dun put song videos for no reason

each has its own meaning

to different ppl,

like the one above is what i feel like doing right now. it is what i would love to sing and its how i would love to dance too...i'll define the meaning further when its right ...hahaha

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celine dion ft r. kelly- i'm your angel-

this goes out to all my freinds out there who is down and feeling so troubled by disturbing toughts...

I'll be your cloud up in the sky

I'll be your shoulder when you cry

I'll hear your voices when you call me

I am your angel And when all hope is gone, I'm here

No matter how far you are, I'm near

It makes no difference who you are

I am your angel

I'm your angel

I am nash ANGELo ...

to those who is broken hearted

and keep asking

"how do you mend a broken heart"

the answer is that

you don't...

the heart is meant to be broken

and if it were to heal there will still be scars

that is the beauty of love

beauty lies in the imperfections

that is what makes it so real

fairy tales and fantasy love do not exists

to go through pain is what makes us human being

and it is the very reason we were born

that is what makes it all worth gg through over and over again

it makes life has a purpose , worth while and worth living...

nites--- signing off...

2006-11-01T23:16:00.000+08:00

-it only takes a short time to love

but forever to trust

love is like a glittering pool

its opague beauty invites the fool to look closely,

to dive right in,

which one does,

forgetting that one cannot swim-

something for my friends that is falling in love or thinking about love or about to take the plunge.

think a million time each sec before you do so...

well at most jus dun think at all

haha

let mother nature take its course...

everything will be jus fine...

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for past few days its been nice

tiring mostly...

it flew pass so fast..

well

met up with friends session

and

went to blue jazz bar at arab street area

with my beloved uncle from canada that came down

we had dinner at zam zam

and drinking session at blu jazz bar

damn nice

please stop gg to balcony

it sucks k

blue jazz bar brings u to a diff place altogether man

well jus a mug of beer and we went home

bloody cab dun wan to stop

all oncall sia

we also call cab...

then go home...

the end....

hey peeps new blog skin....

2006-10-29T04:06:00.000+08:00

yep today i updated my blog
and also change blog skin
guess why....
well jus getting bored of that blogskin.
and felt like doing sth of my own....
shakira is my aphrodisiac...not literally but yeah i like the aura she has ....

so yeah i feel so happy recently... cos a lot of things happen
happy cos of the good things that happen
the bad things that happen...oh wells
nth i can do to change it anyway...

listen to this lyrics...

the video only has nice dance moves but i dun think it suit the song at all

at least for my case tat is...

heh

2006-10-22T14:29:00.000+08:00

isn't christina so hot!!!!
blues, jazz and all ...damn!!!

her pipe
her voice....
damn nice

ENJOY

2006-10-22T00:39:00.000+08:00

it looks like sth heating up
can i leave with you?----

HOW?

haha hey ppl miss me huh?
i never blog cos i have been busy with work and late night phone talks

coolness

well nth ar dun think a lot k...nth yet i think

hahaha

i cant say nth much but
i'm happy yep

gg back to rugby
and work pay is coming soon
green packets alos

$$$$$

haha that is all i can think of

i wanna buy
-fox clothes-
-beckham perfume-
-a new zodiac pendant-
-69-

-i think i like you- -winks-

2006-10-16T01:00:00.000+08:00

had my hair cut today at my personal hair salon. SILKCUT SALON

gays go there .... to get the best hair cut and hair dye ever...

well obviously the one that owns and runs it are gay....dave and geraldine my aunt's friends... best ppl on earth...

nearest mrt station TIONG BAHRU

address i dunno but know how to walk there!!

price reasonable....

place atmosphere very the high class

its at ulu area so yeah wanna hair cut!?> call me please

i'll bring u there but pls bring money with ya
dun embarass me by bargaining pls!

ok anyways my aunt's first year anniversary with her gf was yesterday!
had steanboat together at her bukit timah condo

wanted to go Alternative Bar but aunt say fasting mth cannot go this places...she calls my lil devil

hallo i'm innocent k...jus miss that atmospshere not gg to drink wad...drink 7 bucks coke ok wad ! not every day ur coke 7 bucks at most dun drink coke for a week ar...tap water oso can rite?

then bought my new clothes alr at bugis black market with AKIRA bro and her family...

nice place to bargain and wun lose face cos everyone does that there! the trick is to get the nicest thing at the lowest price ...then u are a pro...

thanks to akira's special fashion sense ...i get wad i was looking for ...jus can't wait to wear it....one more week before hari raya

haha hong bao na lai ar!!!
sigh however this year i dun feel the spirit of hari raya u noe feel so bo chap ...dun ask why i think its the age man...

i had a nice week selling merchandise to staffs at RD ...tiring but time flies faster at work

went out with VIE!!! she also had hair cut
she beat me at it .... hers cheaper and nice
mine nice but not as cheap

well lucky u vie...had fun jus walking ard for clothes to aim for when we get our next pay...hahaha

bo liao alr ....money drained out alr ....

how sia company sux at paying me !!!

well maybe now they like me they give more faster ?
i miss rugby and gg for it soon!!!

wheeee

well tho i miss school more ar!!! WORK SUCKS !!! can i dun work like EVER!!!

woah liao eh... tiring alr sia jus sitting down in freaking cold office...like working at the antartica sitting waitng for fish to bite ur bait but never that kind of feeling each day

damn bo liao le

fuck sia ...freak chinese wordds sss my aunt's gf influnces...

well one more thing

was walking at holland V after eatingat sushi tei (ok so i am not fast , as well as my aunt) with my aunt and gg back to her car...as i was walking serena ask me sth

i turned to look at her

and then

THONG!!!!

there was a pole in front of me and my head hit it with a load DONG! sound so the whole hawker ppl eating stop and look

well so much for wanting attention
this is not wad i need now
haha

freaking pain
painfully embarrassing ar

and beloved aunt and her gf help by joining the laughter...

look at the bright side of things k...i made my aunt smile and laugh today...

she was grumpy before that!!! wah if this goes on i will have o hurt my self more jus to make her laugh ...toking bout saddistic ppl man....

hahaha kidding k my aunt no saddist k

any ways i miss a lot of ppl

and one of them is you babe

-i wanna go out with you....farhana malek- ;)

2006-10-08T00:21:00.000+08:00

HEY got pay but not much...feel like so painful to even spend it cos its like your hard work... u noe...well i gg to give my mum , my aunt and my granny some ...first pay...its like to get blessings...

sth like dat lar huh

so ya

nth much

this week went out with my aunt on wed, thurs met lela, sat dinner with vie...tmr shafah ...hahaha

saw nisa from law jus now

nash: hey wad's your number
nisa: hey u have phone alr?
vie: ahahaha
nash: -_-"'

and my old sec sch fren...so long never go towwn and get spotted by ur frens is so fun haha

well some how or another the story goes on sayin i am dating em's gf's mum....ahahahaha

wad more? i am gg to marry president BUSH daughter? i had a scandal with paris hilton ?

wah liao wan to make story pls be more logical can... who the fuckwans to date a mum ? i alr have a mum...a god mum and a grandMUM!!!

wan em's gf's mum for wad

dun even noe who is em or who is her gf or who is her the mum ...

pls ar...i dun need sugar mummy ... i have myself to depend on...so shut the hell up or seriously

somebady is going to get hurRt -in indian excent-

hhahahahahahahahahahahaha

ooh serious can't take it man...

-gullible fool to believe such a thing

-i tot u are smarter than this

i said i want to help
i did not say i want trouble

2006-10-04T23:56:00.000+08:00

hey i got my pay cheque!!!

WHEEE

damn now have to wait till monday to get the cash!!!

crap lar

must bank in

and take 2 working days

so bank in tmr

will probably get it till monday!!!

sigh

was thinking i could spend the money this week

never mind the later the better

means i got money good enough!

-she ask are you dating an older girl? or lady?

i am NOT dating anyone and if i am...

i'll make sure you will be the first to noe...-

2006-10-03T21:49:00.000+08:00

i noe i said life sux ...well i realised that it is meant to sux so dat we will appreciate the times when life does not sux

get wad i mean?

oh wells there is a balance in life...you have good days and bad days

so previously over the weekend it was actually filled with good and bad...

the same for this week
but i get a lil bit worried when things are jus too good to be true
u simply jus dun wan it to end
and pray so hard its not a dream

well monday was sucky
no work till like 4.30 then bloody guy edmund give me work
so i did slowly in case no work this whole work
tried so hard to ask when my PAY is coming!!!!
and guess what b4 i knew it...the HR manager went home so early
SHE IS SUPPOSE TO GET BACK TO ME ABOUT MY PAY !!!
bloody hell
and went to meet shafah AGAIN! YEA

her lil brother so cute
how i wish my "lil" bro listens to me
went to jus walk with her at rivervale mall
its jus this small lil things that lights up ur day
she made my day...blissful

went home and guess wad i get
a hated family
couldn't take the silence anymore
my aunt and me
so after i heard she went to scold my mom 4 my behaviour
i called her up
i tot i gg to scream at her
but i jus couldn't

my angst towards her have fill to the brim that i dunno
whether to blow up
or
pour out

so i choose to pour out
yea
i broke down the moment i said this very word
the hardest thing you could ever say
the word that needs sincerity and loads of gut
jus to say it

and that word is

SORRY...

i told her that i was sorry for being rude at her mum
(my granny)
but actually i was not angry at granny
but her
so that is when she heard me
broke down on the phone

and never tot ur fav aunt to react this way
but my aunt laughed and tot its cute
well i am her one and only fav niece
so each time i put my ego down
she understands me inside out
she noes its hard for me to do that
and when i do i really mean it and
am sincere

so i guess she was touched
and decided to let me join her for dinner at bugis tmr
seoul garden with her frens
after work!!
i love dates after work...
you noe sth to look forward too
and so you have a drive
that is me i need a drive

no drive
i wun move

never tot the word
sorry
could heal angst and hatred in jus a second
when it has made your life miserable for days

try it
it works

today
tuesday
second day of work for the week
and guess wd
from nth to do and bored at work
to piling me up with complicated jobs!

fun tho
at least time pass so fast
heee
nth much tho
jus looking forward to TMR!

work
dinner with fav aunt
watch anime

thurs---HOPEFULLY GET PAY AR!!
date with lels baby

friday
have ar

sat
appointment with
mdm ZAINAB!
go turf

sunday
meet
SHAFAH!!

ALL PLANNED AND BOOKED
FOR MORE DETAILS
CALL SISTIC
AT 81451796!

i have things i wanna buy with my pay
but my heart will ache if i spent anyhow
well

we'll see
my mum gg umrah on the 8 !!

honestly
i hate to see my mum go

to mum,
i noe i have not tok to u much lately
or see u even
or hug u and say i love u
or call u jus to tell u how my day is
i take u for granted knowing u will be ard
but now u are gg away
i feel it
this pain i dunno how to describe
i guess its the bond we alr have
the moment u give birth to me
no matter how much we fight
no matter how far we are
we both know we do still and always
love each other

sorry if i hardly show that i care
but i really do
pls promise me u will come home safe
that is all i pray for
and that is all i need

- i miss you ....

2006-10-01T22:08:00.000+08:00

today i clean my room
the one at seng kang
yes
thorough cleaning

so yep nth much
b4 that i met up with shafah
i miss her like crazy
well she's been busy

to shafah
i jus want you to noe
i am here for you
you tell me u're losing it
i get worried easily
you can do it babe
take a time off to find urself

i really dun wan to see u fall
breaks my heart knowing i couldn't do nth

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saturday at turf city
bloody hell it rain non stop
till like the whole two games i watched
no umbrellas
have tissues tho for my running nose
yes nash the sick lil puppy
stands under the rain

then this lazy ass dun feel like gg home to change
went to town and found aisha baby!

my aisha
jus nice she finish work
and company me while waiting for vie and gale for dinner
i was being such a retard the whole time
laughing non stop---
and oh yeah wore my aunts tight converse black leather shoe u noe the one that is black leather version of the high cut shoe
well i realise my right foot is bigger than my left
hehe

so ate at VILLA'GE
heeren with vie and gale

then went home---

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friday

after the whole warehouse sale was over...
went out with jen and frens
to sakae sushi at heeren
well jen's gf is the one i saw that looks like shane.. wad a coincidence
and i tot she was 15

haha

well friday felt sucky cos edmund did not pay my frens on the spot
i wished we ...oh nvm

i am really sorry for the really sucky company i am working in
i hate reader's digest!
got damn it!!!

oh other than that nth much ar

----------------------------------------from fri to suday
i met up with

jen, vie,gale,ifa,lela,aisha, and shafah

these are jus the few ppl i would love to meet and dun mind the journey anytime...

heh
felt my weekend is fulfilled

sigh...work sux
family sux
aunt sux
god damn

life simply jus sux

2006-09-27T20:44:00.000+08:00

i am sickk

like a sick puppy

body aches

running nose

high fever

sore throat

i hardly fall sick

so when i do

i love it...

the weather seem so cold

and all u want to do is snuggle up in bed and sleep

with my favourite smelly pillow and my pokemon jumper

hehe

i am still mad at my aunt tho

i guess we are the same

when angry at each other

we will refuse to talk to each other

so childish rite> well like father like son they say

i hate the job k!!!

i was sick yest and today
and fasting some more

but that stupid edmund made me do so many things

one of the many tortures is to go from paya lebar to P.S. spotlight to buy fabrics

then to tan jong katong complex then back to office

HI card running low cos of calling this edmund who cant make up his mind whether or not to buy the fabric to cover the books ....frreaking irritating

my feet is killing me!!!

blisters on my baby toes!!!

and could hardly breathe

and coughing

and suffering from dehydration

sigh

i dun mean to complain

but wad the fuck its my blog so yea

3 mths internship

is like slavery work for freaking 440 only
cannot survive i tell u

HATE READER'S DIGEEESSST

but some girls there i find are hot

stern ladies are hotttt man

I AM NOT GG TO TAKE MCs

i promise myself

2006-09-25T05:19:00.000+08:00

hey ppl fasting month alr and

for the first time i wanna do it seriously cos my aunt seem to want to do it seriously

then first day of fasting she say she has her period...
21 cycle she said

so its no point

i tell myself ...i look up to her and she gives excuses asfter i really believe in her

i told myself not to get angry that she has asked me not to go for training at all during the fasting month cos she wans me home to eat dinner with family and pray ....cos she will do exactly the same...

so yeah...we all try our best to follow the footsteps of our dad...(to me she is like my dad) and we try to do better than our dad...surpass them in everything...

but what the hell...i should have known ...freaking dissapointed...

HELLO AUNT! JUS COS U HAVE MONEY AND THE WHOLE FAMILY DEPENDS ON UR FREAKING WEALTH THAT DOES NOT MEAN U CONTROL AND RULE EVERYTHING!!

u are freaking unreasonable!!! why !
money is neutral..its what human do with it that turns it into evil or good..so wad if u say to ppl u support the family when u actually use it also to threaten me!

to get ur way!!!
i listen to u
every single thing u ask me to do !!!
so wad if u reward me with materials@!!!
so wad!!!
i would have done wad u told me to w/o all that
and u noe why
cos i look up to you
but now

it all shows
u say my true colors have shown!
it is you who have not yet realise ur true colors!!
u think ur king!!
u think u rule!!!
and everything has to go ur way

mother kept queit
no matter when u told her recently of wad u are
u noe why!!!
cos she noes she cannot prevent u from it
cos she noes u rule!!!!
not cos she is ok with it!!!

but when i told the whole family wad i am!!
they did not agree with it
but its cos of my determination
and then they realise they cannot do anything
not cos of threat using money!!! like u!!!
u only dare to tell them wad u are when u are 39

i told them when i was even not 18 yet!!!
i dun even have the power of money

that is the difference between us
i love u far everything u are
but i hate only one thing

how u let money
control u

stop it !! one day it will be too late to realise it
the very close one to you will jus walk away one day
dun say i have not warn u

it seems like u love to be in control
u love power
damn now u have tot me one thing

power and money is nth
it destroys one person
even if the person is good as u

sigh u dissapoint
me

-i cried silently ...when i felt like screaming back at you. i stop
-cos i noe nth will ever change-

2006-09-18T00:02:00.000+08:00

my current favourite song!

describes about me, my life and the gay world!!!

screaming!!!---->>> let urself LOOSE!!!

Here comes one for the ladies
For the ones who love me
To think I thought I could be some kind of family man
I told myself I was straight
But I shouldn't have worried
'Cos my Maker had a better plan for me

And I'm dancing with the freaks now
I'm havin', I'm havin' so much fun
What you sow is what you reap now
I'll do my dance with everyone
I've been getting too much Sun
(Yes I'm dancin' with the freaks now)
We're havin', we're havin' too much fun for them
Look who's talking Guilty feet now?

Well let me tell you people
It's an easier affair
Not living my life with other people on my mind
No, got nothing to hide from anyone
Yes, I'm walking on new air
Just living my life
Better believe I'm gonna get what's mine
See I don't have the time
For the haters

And all the time that I wasted
How careless of me
Too young and stupid to see
I put my life in their hands
(Gonna look for Cupid, man)
Oh, and I know that they want me to hate them
There's no hurry
I'll just have to be the bigger man

Dancin' with the freaks now I'm havin', I'm havin' so much fun
What you sow is what you reap now
I'll do my dance with everyone
I've been getting too much Sun
If I turn the other cheek now
Would that be, would that be too much fun for them?
Look who's talking Guilty feet now?

Well let me tell you people
It's an easier affair
Not livin' my life with other people on my mind
No, got nothing to hide from anyone
'Cos I'm walking on new air
Just living my life
Better believe I'm gonna get what's mine
See I don't have the time for the haters

Don't let them tell you who you are is not enough
Don't let them tell you that it's wrong
Or that you won't find love

Don't let them use my life to put your future down
Don't let them tell you that happiness can't be found

For my life

Take it to the streets
There are stories you can keep
They're just passing you by

Don't let them tell you who you are is not enough
Don't let them tell you that it's wrong Or that you won't find love
Don't let them use my life to put your future down
Don't let them tell you that happiness can't be found

2006-09-16T23:03:00.000+08:00

yep

from being an audience to a player on the field
had a dream bout it tho
and it came true
almost

WE SCORED one against WANTOX ok....not bad
but they scored a million times
hahah

nvm
the girls made my day

went town after that with hudsie and shaz
i talk a lot
cos ------------->>>i'm tired
yes i tok alot of CRAP when i am tired

then went to meet SHAFAH!!! sweetheart!!

she said "i miss you too."

made my tiring day brighter...tho i was alr half dead
from work to training was tiring
then i have to watch shaman king
on normal days i'll reach home at 8 to 8.30 om

how crappy
tiring more mths to come...
my body is gg to crumble at the end of SIP
and school will start
wad the FUCK!

i miss you too SHAFAH!!!
pls do ask me out tmr
and i would love to go with u

hahaha
girl ask me out
pampered me
hahaha

oh that is bout it
i am at home now and i am so freaking tired

so that is why such lazy post
i love polar curry puffs.
my new addiction
oh and craving for famous amos
NO NUT CHOCOLATE CHIP!
favouritttttteeee

thanks vie and gale and nicole
for providing me with rugby gear
today

i was afraid
but when we start to play
it went away
thanks

-i am trying to change slowly...egoistic side of me suck...-

2006-09-15T00:22:00.000+08:00

THIS IS MY SEMESTER RESULTS!!!!

haha i pass all

and to me that is all that matters

wheeee

pls dun nag at me

at being so relax with my current results

you should see my previous 2 yr semester results

you'd be amazed at how i backstroke(meaning: to swim the harder way with sun facing you but u dun suffocate) through my poly life.

its to not get so worked up.

and

live your life at ease

I HAD FUN TODAY AT TRAINING!

ok so today is the first day i actually talked to any of them

last week when i joined

i did not talk much

or not at all

but after wad ifa say

i jus have to say this

ifa i am there with ya!

so dun be discourage k

this time i wun let any buggers try step all over me EVER AGAIN

dun take me so lightly jus cos i joke around and all

i do that so that you wun get so worked up while playing

but i am for serious this time

dun mess with me

i am gg to draw a big line around me

i will joke

but i am gg to be serious and blant at times

i wun ever blow my temper

cos you are all not worth it

but i will be str8 to your face kind a thing k

so yup

but so far ifa

i think wad you say is so true

less complicated, they are....

ohoh

my work was fun too!!! i actually had to do sth that requires my MARKETING SKILL!!!

i tot interns kena make coffe or photocopy stuff that kind

but NO!!!

i actually get to do sth

whihc means i cannot sleep early tonite@!@#!#!%$!

but its ok

you noe why!!! cos friday is casual day...meaning i can dress down abit

jeans and i dunno my G-star shirt

still have not decide yet

but wad ever it is

tmr also last day before my weekend comes and i can sleep!!!

oh so excited !

wad are they gg to make me do tmr!

you know wad!!!

first day to be honest

they only ask me to do the library

i had to rearrage books in order lar and stupid categorizations ar...

sigh

back ache carry books

books piled up so high i could make it into a bar stool

and boxes and all

tell you my wish now is to get a massage

a back massage!!!

AISHA!!!

we need a get together time!

i massage your back and you massage mine

pls ar ppl this is not horny stuff

aisha my twin sister taught me this

back massage skill k

power one alright!

haahhaha

well other than that i am off now to complete some bits of research

or else i have to wake up so early tmr to do it in the office

bye!!!

2006-09-12T22:19:00.000+08:00

y do ppl say stupid things to hurt others?

i saw you cry. after so long.
can feel how u feel
keeping it all inside
angst
and sadness
but nth we could do
nth i could do
or say
but be there for u
wads frens for...

just want u to noe
that i am here
to listen...

and to me i think
they are wrong bout u
cos first and foremost
they dunno you

so dun let them get to you
or let their words spoil ur whole life
k
u are way better than who ever that make u cry

to a fren of mine-
---------------------------------------------------------

yeah tmr first day of work

ok let me remind u all i worked b4 k
at fish & co. --suntec--
last year
for 3 mths
hahah
ard april-june

that was my first job
and was fantastic ar

well guess where the school put me at now?
hahah
reader digest asia pte ltd
at paya lebar babes!
the s'pore post centres there
12 floor k

the only marketing student there sia...damn bored
the others are logistics friends
ming wei is one of them
they not gg to work at the same floor as me....
so alone

but i saw the office today
its nice!!!!

ok so excited and nervous

excited cos i wanna noe wads office work is like
nervous cos i am afraid i can't do the work up to their expectation

AND dun u dare ask me wad i am gg to wear tmr
cos its not gg to be a skirt for sure!!
so too bad all those of my frens who have been wantingto see me in a skirt
HAH!

WORKING PANTS AND WORKING SHIRT -final-!

well and thursd rugby training...dreading to go to it but

i only want to cos of some reasons
-to relieve stress
-to be there for MY friends (some)
-to play and have fun

dreading to go for training
-cos i hate some of them too
-bloody politics
-physical training!

yes thats about it

and suppose to be fasting ar huh

pay back wad i have not done b4
my whole family been nagging at me...couldn't take it anymore!!!
so get it done and over with

my mum SUCKS!!!
not in toking terms with her

as in i rather not tok to her at all
cos i end up fighting

well other than that

i am jus waiting for weekend to come so i could sleep over my aunt's condo and swim and relax

crappp

am i being too slack?

5 day work week 9-6pm

check that out hahhA

2006-09-12T21:15:00.000+08:00

WORDS
most dangerous weapon
words that could stab u in the heart
smash ur ego down the drain
or even make u a souless being

dun utter those words that hurt
stop being a saddist
life is already crappy
dun make it worst please

reminds me that i'm just a human being
vulnerable and foolish
let us all release ourself from
world's misery and

just stop.

2006-09-11T21:49:00.000+08:00

The Maid of Honor
Deliberate Gentle Love Master (DGLMf)

Appreciated for your kindness and envied for all your experience, you are The Maid of Honor.

Charismatic, affectionate, and terrific in relationships, you are what many girls would call a "perfect catch"--and you probably have many admirers, each wishing to capture your long-term love. You're careful, extra careful, because the last thing you want is to hurt anyone. Especially some poor girl whose only crime was liking you.

We've deduced you're fully capable of a dirty fling, but you do feel that post-coital attachment after hooking up. So, conscientious person that you are, you do your best to reserve physical affection for those you respect...so you can respect yourself.

Your biggest negative is the byproduct of your careful nature: indecision. You're just as slow rejecting someone as you are accepting them.

ALWAYS AVOID: The Battleaxe, The Stiletto, The Sudden Departure, The Dirty Little Secret

CONSIDER: The Maid of Honor, someone just like you.

Your exact opposite:
Half-cocked

Random Brutal Sex Dreamer
Link: The 32-Type Dating Test by OkCupid - Free Online Dating.
My profile name: nash6969

http://www.okcupid.com/oktest3

go take the test!!! freak i am a maid sia. crap. hahaha oh wad the fuck...means i am a gentleman k!!!

crap which girls want that nowdays...all looking for "get your freak on" kindda thing

anyways got try out ar...i dunno which links u to it just try k!

2006-09-09T22:35:00.000+08:00

PICTURES BELOW ARE TAKEN WHEN I WENT OUT FOR A MOVIE CUM LUNCH DATE WITH FARHANA!!!

now then she blogged bout it. not my fault for not putting up pictures early.

she took only half of my face.

i told her cameras hate me...

so she took her own picture...

she has various expressions...

this is the sweet innocent farhana

now then both our faces got taken...

i'm happy

cos we look good

this is one of her many expression

this is the other side of her personality

hahaha

i kindda like taking pictures nowadays.

with many of my friends being cam whore queens and princesses...

i'll be the cam whore prince then k....

hahahah

i love the date....heee

2006-09-09T01:36:00.000+08:00

AISHA INVITE ME AND FRIENDS OUT FOR DINNER!!!

HERE IS THE PICTURES

sleepy nashy- yawnss

THE GANG!

My ever so close best friend

AISHA!

YUP!

ppl do say we look like siblings!

hahaha

cheeky ARE us!

hehehe

we even laugh the same way!

haiyah tired already ar aisha.

take so many time

till eyes went shut!

hah

shiok sendiri man!!

looking good

ICE CREAM GALORE!

at swenson's

thankies to aisha baby!

not a normal dinner i tot it was going to be.

its a nice surprise after such a long dreadful time

and yes...we are having so much fun cam whoring!!

i think we are being watched. i hope no one i knew saw me with 4

beautiful ladies. there goes my chance...sigh

haha

we had a game of tying the chery stem into a knot

see i the picture above! i can tie a knot k!

aisha said those who could is a good french kisser!!!

i was so happy until they compared aisha's with mine.

her knot was nicer and tighter!

ok fine i know now i am good at french kissing

but not as good as aisha!

she is a pro!

day dreaming!!

was so happy that dinner was so great i actually day dreamed

hahaha

ok not really i was letting aishaa take my side profile

fine i am vain!

yeah picture at century square second floor toilet!

its nice they have sofas and a table.

it became our photoshooting studio for more than half and hour!

look at us

dun we look good

especially me!!!

HOT

okok enough

b4 hate taggers come for me

ahahaha

haha i love group photos

especially with the help of a whole wall mirror

to get a reflection picture of us!

yes more pictures!! my twin is behind me

can't u see!!

that lady in red is my twin

serious!

hahahah

ppl use to believe me hahaha

oh wondering whose bloody hair is in the pic

that is mine

covering the cam

it taking a reflection picture again of us!

dun we look good

like FRIENDS sitcom

ahh yese i do hate taking pictures

but at times like this

special moments should be captured

and kept for years to come

so that we could look back and remind ourselves the times

we used to have

a carefree and happy life...

then we will learn how worth it

it is to be alive and have friends

tho at times

it is not always sunshine

but we sure will know how to deal with it

cos this is life ppl

take the good and leave the bad.

memories stays on forever in our hearts

wheeeeee i am so happy @!!!!!

thanks to my beloved best friend

AISHA!!!

2006-09-09T00:53:00.000+08:00

i love the shaman king closing soundtrack! its by megumi hayashibara and titled omokage. meaning=reminiscent. it has a beautiful song lyric. go find urself if u wanna noe more. what i love about this song also cause of its beat , rythm and the various tunes and pace. i dunno how to put it. i sometimes feel like wanna sing a long to it. call me crazy...of all song japanese anime songs? haha but wad the heck. i learn that in this life you must always be prepared to expect the unexpected. and even if u're not ready and u fall. pick yourself up and tell urself...the least expected things always happens to unexpected people. learn to accept the fact, the truth and then u can embrace the future. hahah okok enough of my deep tots. watch shaman king its great!

2006-09-07T00:18:00.000+08:00

met up with aisha baby!!!

well i never tot dinner with aisha and frens would be so fun and memorable!!!
we ate dinner at swensons.
we took million of pictures.

be back with the pictures...i'll get from aisha...

thank you aisha for the belated b'day gift!

its a very nice surprise...

a whole doay of sleeping from yesterday nite till 3pm on wednesday..and tho no break fast or lunch...the dinner with u guys make up for all of it...

i feel like living a life of a royal. sleep wake up go for dinner. paid by aisha and get gift and take phot ....ok lar not royalty lar me...kuli only.

hahaha but body aches still...stupid rugby training... haha but i love rugby still! ok training later with u guys. hope this aches go away!

2006-09-06T15:55:00.000+08:00

Depression is merely anger without enthusiasm

Just remember - if the world didn't suck, we would all fall off.

Light travels faster than sound. That is why some people appear bright until you hear them speak

Hard work pays off in the future. Laziness pays off now.

When everything is coming your way, you're in the wrong lane.

I GOT THIS FROM SHAFAH'S LIVEJOURNAL. I TOOK ONLY SOME THAT I THINK IS SO TRUE AND HILARIOUS.

2006-09-06T15:16:00.000+08:00

sorry guys for not updating lately...been shagged out in a fun and great way hahaha ...

okok been watching a few movies and all and joined back rugby training on monday.
4 mths not training and suddenly trained on monday ...now my whole body still aching...crap right!?

and my passes sucks now!!!! wad the fuck happen to me...ppl used to shout at me last time to WATCH MY PASSES cos its fast and hard. now they shout HOI NASH U NEVER EAT FOR TEN DAYS IS IT WHERE IS UR STRENGTH!. i was like a kan chiong spider on that day too. sigh crappy feeling inside. i hate my own passes.

ok but i had a great time b4 training. i asked farhana malek out for morning movie and lunch date. hmmm its been long since i met up with her so yep. and she couldn't resist Devil wears prada so at last no more rejection.

its was a typical comedy movie. the movie practically talks about a comparison of a workoholic Miranda the editor in chief of the fashion magazine the RUNWAY and the first assistant name andy acted by anne hathaway(hotness!) okok anyway..its telling us that we could chose to have the dream jobs that million of ppl would die for and sacrifice family and friends at the same time or we could choose to have a balance life of not so popular job but also have ur love ones and friends by ur side.

so its typical. but the nice thing i like is the clothes and all. oh and anne hathaway!

don't she look gorgeous?

okok enough already...and tuesday which was yesterday i watched pretty persuasion. well farhana told me about it and she actually wanted to watch it but since i bought the ticket already ...oh wells... i ask my rugby frens to go watch with me. i asked ifa the captain and ifa ask vie and gale... so yep we watched an M 18 show together. how weird can that be? hahah but it was fun and all. the movie is about sex manipulation. another typical movie.

oh wells ...at least this time i dun watch movies alone. like some deeply pressed asshole u noe wad i mean..hhahha it was nice to catch up with my frens yesterday. i did not know everytime i go missing in action (M.I.A) I SERIOUSLY WILL MISS A LOT OF ACTION! i mean i did not realised it but yeah ... my life been the same tho. mundane and laid back sort of. i like the new mundane and laid back me. i dunno i jus realise why bother waste so much energy you noe? hahaha

sat with vie at long john far east plaza and talked from 6.30 till 9 pm and then i went home. it was so long since we talked. damn hilarious and all..

ok i think life gg to be so great if we take it in slowly. u noe like drinking wine. hahah wad carp is dat man. any ways going to meet with aisha sweetheart- tennis player and closestest friend of mine. for dinner later at TAMPINESS! all the way from YISHUN here i come. wheee gonna be great. you owe me a lot a lot a lot of hugs and kisses i tell you aisha!

hahaha i wish we could play scrabble again...please make a date with shazana and who ever and lets play scrabble at changi airport starbucks since tampiness mall starbucks is being boycott cos of some lil misunderstanding and really spoiled a great game!

well only aisha understand wad i am saying. okok i jus woke up actually and decided to update cos past few days been so great...i must post it and let the whole universe noe.

chao

2006-08-26T00:24:00.000+08:00

do you love to watch animations

japanese animations??

like the shaman king and all

me too!!!

cool stuff ...damn awesome better than pokemons
or X-MEN for that matter

if you watch the shaman king

wednesday to friday nite

11.30 pm onwards

you should noe the coolest guy in the show is called master yoh

and anna his fiancee has a hot attitude about her

too bad she is just an animation

hahaha

how can anyone be so cool and relax in times of desperations and danger ....wow i tell you

that is why they are just animations

in real life you can never find someone as that

but you can pretend to be

well i am bored ar so i type bout the most recent activity i had for today

well actually the only activity i did the whole day

WATCHING TV and being a potato couch

well sometimes there are days i would like to waste it dat way

a distration from reality and away from problems

even did not smoke for a few long hours.... i mean i usually have a regular time when i smoke

in the mornings, lunch, dinner and b4 i go to sleep

but to day i only had it in the after noon and b4 gg to sleep

i think watching television more can help me kick the habit

or i think so

2006-08-24T21:39:00.000+08:00

a song my bro intro me
its very unlikely i like his taste of songs
but the lyrics and beats of this song is good
GO WATCH!!

2006-08-24T19:59:00.001+08:00

she means so much to me.
i wish she only knew
because when i'm around her
the sky is a different blue
and when she talks to me,
my knees began to shake.
the last thing i need
is another heartbreak.
but when i try to talk,
i just don't know what to say
because somehow i know...
she doesn't feel the same way.

a poem i wrote . sigh .

2006-08-23T15:28:00.000+08:00

Have you ever get a phone call and it always end upwith you saying

SORRY WRONG NUMBER!

well i got them

but why i wanna point this out is that

i have been getting

the "sorry wrong number" thing so many times

i mean is it me

or is it the fact that my phone has been damned quiet these days

i wish it stayed tat way

without

wrong ppl calling me

REMEMBER MY NUMBER IS

81451796

and

NOT

81454796

81457796

SO WHEN YOU DIAL THAT NUMBER

DIAL PROPERLY

lazy fingers

wads with ppl nowadays

i'm depressed enough alr

now wanna iritate the shit out of me

ahahhaha

past few days i have been like bugs bunny saying

" sorry wrong number"

ppl that call me seriously have nth to do with me

but u can't fault them

at times of emergency

their fingers tend to dial wrong numbers

just imagine how would you react

if a star were to call u accidentally

like for example colin ferrell or sth

if it was me i would say

"WAD THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH U! I AM NOT KELLY. YOUR WIFE'S DEAD!

and oh by the way

SORRY WRONG NUMBER!"

The picture above is joe horn a really hopeless football player for which unfortunate team

i wouldn't wan to noe...

i firgured he tried to call for help or sth u noe

calling his famous football stars for help in the tactics or sth

but wad the hell they say football players are pretty dumb

so guess who he called

"hello is this michael jordan? oh hi, i am ur biggest fan, i am joe horn and i need your help in my football game now...could u tell me how to erm...fly? "

he forgets michael jordan plays basketball and can't swing a bat or throw football for nuts!!!

hahaha ok just joking ppl

i love jordan too ya noe...

but seriously ppl , u all should take note when u dail phone numbers

it cost ok...and watch the time you call at...

i also wanna post this is because

my sleep...i was in deep sleep ...till my phone rang

SHOCKINGLY!!

cos my phone went like zombiefied after YOU-KNOW-WHAT happened

and obviously ...not surprising its a wrong number again!!

tell me how many times can u get ur numbers wrong

HUH!!

SOME ASSHOLE call

for ROSLAN

there are some that start scolding

and well it was too late for them to realise its

the

wrong NUMBER!

you all make me laugh ...i sometimes imagine you all to be some kind of cartoons

trying to make my life worst than it already is

HALLO! i noe singapore is freaking small and boring...can't you just wait for a few more years!!!

till the CASINO is build or sth....

leave me alone

THANK YOU VERY NICE...

and there are some who got into some trouble

needs help to bail themselve out

but have forgotten their dearest mother's number

try their luck in dailing any number

hopefully its some loaded samaritan

that would buy the story that you are their long lost relative

from far away

and was wronged by rich dirty ppl

well if i got that kindda call i would say

" hey you know wad bro...i'll visit u from time to time alright... stay in there, they have free shelter and food....be good now ....and oh i just remembered

i dun have a brother....

sorry wrong number!"

now a days with young ladies reproducing...they wanna chuck their babies aside

so wad do the babies do...

they vow to find their rightfull mother

by calling the whole globe

hey wad can u say

babies are getting smarter these days

with great advanced technology

anything is possible

i can bet you they will ask

" why didn't you insist on dad wearing a condom! or else i wouldn't be here and have to go thru the phonebook just to find you ..."

some either couldn't read the numbers properly or seriously need help to understand that the philipino maid gave him a wrong number because he just wanted to get away from him

!!!

serious some call me twice

using another language

if i am not wrong was in tamil

asking

" where have you been???"

twice!!!

i keep telling them that

i am at home and..............

SORRY WRONG NUMBER!!!!

I COULD MAKE A POETRY OUT OF THIS

like ....

sorry wrong number

days have been silent

the quiet nites

the lonely mornings

with a sudden "ring"

startled the heart

when answered with a smile

ended with a frown

and

saying

'SORRY WRONG NUMBER'

all hopes was gone

------------------------------

or i could do a movie

well above is a movie done in the olden days

see i told you

i bet it irritate the directors out there

that they have to get it done in the movies

well at least what i posted here got into the movies

and was the title too

SORRY WRONG NUMBER!

they also have plays

on sorry wrong number

see wad one irritance can be anothers great idea

to great big cash

damn only if i was fast enough

i could have patented

the title

SORRY WRONG NUMBER

and those who uses them as their play titles or movie titles or poem titles

or any such titles with sorry wrong number

will have to pay me royalties

hah!

ok ok enough nash we get ur point--

some actually got the right number but preferEd to say

sorry wrong number

for their safety

hahhaha

cracks me up...

i think i did that to my dearest mumsy a few times

when i got her on the wrong mood swing

hahha

one good tip

to get off the phone quickly

say

SORRY WRONG NUMBER!

HAHAHHAHA

life can never be so irritating

but without irritance

i honestly will have to admit my life will be dull

that is why sometimes when ppl find me an irritance

i always tell my self that they just wanted to say

how much i make their life so vibrant and fun...hahaha

always look on the bright sight

AND WATCH THE DIAL WHEN U Dial....

SIGNING OUT

nash BUUUUURRRRNNN------pooof

2006-08-21T21:16:00.000+08:00

RACHEL THE QUEEN OF CAMWHORE IS SICK!

mr.KFC smiling at her...haha

she have sore throat and bad cough cannot eat fried chicken

sad rite?

rachel chen and joel

nice couple ...haha

frens ar

the stoning and smoking kaki

joel and alan!

emoboy + paul twohil

haha

you wanna noe wad rachel is doing? she is watching my PAUL! the freaking assh*le

eat his delicious fried chicken all by himself

hahahah

6 ppl watch PAUL eat happily...

they say the more the merrier wad

never said that the more ppl eat the merrier

well the other 6 lazy bums sat around paul while he chew away

hahah that was one hell of an outing...

dunno where to go

end up joining 3 tables in kfc and redesign the lay out a bit to make space for all 7 of us

but only one person is eating

and that is no other than

PAUL!

me stoning and watching PAUL eat

these days no appetite seh serious

no matter how much paul licks his fingers and spits the chicken bones out

i really have no appetite to eat

donno why

heh

cannot take it already seh rachel...

so sick yet gg to visit ah kong

sigh...good grand daughter

not like me

visit grandmother a while just to get money

the cushion not warm yet i go already

POWER Babes!

NO LAR

its my luck wad

cannot say oso mah

the bridge that brought us together!!

we rules!!

gonna miss you all man

last year already...fuck siah so fast

anyway poly getting bored

but at the same time the world outside and life after poly is so unpredictable

dunno if we gg to meet up and chill still or gg to loose contacts

haiyah dun worry ar

as long as u have msn messenger or friendster

where ever we are sure connected one ar ppl!

wheeee

getting high !!!

goodnes terrible hair

this is call the birdnest

some ppl call it

THE BIRDFLOOO

yea

hahahahahha

ok lame i noe

the three amigo and a pinch of female

hahahaha

that is wad my lil bro said!

and i craked up seh

nash-paul-suren

rachel's shirt!

it says

I LIKE GIRLS

THAT LIKE GIRLS

see me too!

gays rocks!!

embrace it, be proud of it, be true

the three monkeys at woodlands carpark

in which from suren's information

he said that there is a corner where ppl BANG BANG there you noe

hahaha

trust suren to noe all this...dunno if he

ahem ahem

lets not go into details

underage readers do visit my blog too u see

sometimes they also forget they are underage

speak no evil, hear no evil, see no evil

its read from right to left then corect

but picture take that way wad to do

three monkeys and the kangaroo taking this picture!!!

same on lar like on top

only in pink

i think this photo is very nice

thaks to suren that took the picture

and too rachel for the camera and the editing and the posting it up on her blog

if not u all wun get to see

so yup

rachel-nash-paul

this is at causeway point that time

extra pictures

okok signing out

nash BUUUUURRRRRRRN------pooof

2006-08-20T21:40:00.000+08:00

I LOVE THIS SONG!!! -DANCES AROUND-

2006-08-17T22:17:00.000+08:00

i promise u guys the pictures that me and my friends took when we went to woodlands causeway point...so here it is

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the OWNER and royal camwhore! -RACHEL CHEN!!!

btw i took this picture...jus at the right moment

three middle fingers unite!

auto-vibrating cos bus shaky hahah

the solemn wait--FOR THE FREAKING BUS!

first time for RACHIE the tai tai....to take 969...a long ride

for a petite lady...she also never come causeway b4

not surprising....orchard road faces seh we all

wad to do

IT WAS A FUN EXPERIENCE!!

THE ROOT CAUSE>>> boredom!!

see wad boredom can make ppl do!

in the cab on the way to causeway point from TP...suren now happy

but u have yet to see his face when we reached

cos he had to pay the balance if its more than 16 bucks!!

EH that aviators look familiar ....

haha

I took this picture! THE FREAKING CAB SHAKE THE CAM!

but still got a cool picture...suren! and rachie!!!

wearing shades in the august rain!

suren-rach-nash

happy day...got rachie to follow us to a crazy ride to causeway point

for nth

poor girl...see lar...bored somemore

rachia wrote a poem below this picture...its interesting but i hell dunno wad it means

she has a talent for poems beats mine babe!

"The social scene where she gets her fix

Has been broken since '87

And just look at that social clique

Do you really wanna be a part of it? "

she also wrote another poem under this photo here goes ,

"When you look with your eyes

Everything seems nice

But if you look twice you can see it's all lies "

nice poems i feel... there is others ar...but this are those i find interesting....leave ur head hanging...

any ways Suren!! paid extra for cab fare....thanks k

not free loader i pain paul alr k!

there is more photos but can never get rachie to be online...

so have to wait...

but it was always fun to hang out wif u all...

like today!!! 6 ppl watch paul eat...pictures coming up soon ...have to wait ar for rach to upload the photos...

slow lar

2006-08-16T12:35:00.000+08:00

hey blog...sorry for not updating u k

been total pig this week

hahaha my mum called me to tell me that the school sent me another two more warning letters ...she freaked out .... sigh now my aunt gg to wanna noe bout this from her

my mum never gets it ... i keep telling her that those letters are just warning and that i am not debarred from the test yet but NOOO... she wanna noe where i went went i was suppose to be in school on those times ...

mum give me a break... wad u wan me to tell you ? that i skipped school to see my now "ex-gf" ?

please man i noe wad i am doing....tell who is the student here !! well its me lar so i noe the school rules and my limits ...point is i noe wad i am doing

in fact the teachers and me are like pals ...for three years in TP u think i am tat dumb to get my self debarred on my last year...i may be a slacker ...a player ...but hey i still got a brain....i work hard i play hard....that is my point

well this week marketing students are actually by right is having holidays already...but NOO!!! dr arnold wants us to have a celebration week

meaning attendance are compulsory and that we all ave to show up for some debriefing stuff...other than that ...i only have one last presentation tmr and and french amazing race...my fav tut of all this sem is french....cos SARAH!! and JAY (my tp jay not the ugly fat jay ) !! is in it ...smokers rules ....well sarah makes me luff so hard ...freaking cheeky girl checking asses out together and all....ahh JAY love asses even Jerome's asses ...hahaha

funney ppl

anyways gonna be officially having hols next week...and gg to yishun gym to work my ass out ...have to even if i dun want to...then i will go to my aunt's house over the weeked and swim laps ...till the tp rugby training resumes

then i will join

but the problem now is that i noe ppl is not gg to be happy about my return in the team and that i noe will not be a good news

one thing for sure they gg to test me to my upmost limit ...and i have no choice but to swallow it and i can never blow up or throw my temper anymore...this time i have no choice...if i were to join back ...i have to join back for good if not i should not show my face on the field

but i really wan to play again ...why cant they understand ..i am gg to comeback for training to play with them...i am not wanting or need to compete with them for placing in IPs cos i dun intend to compete...but i will do my best during training that is all...its not fair for my other team mates i noe ....and i am sorry for the way i treat the team...

well all i am afraid of is that i might not be able to cope with the trainings...so i wish myself luck cos i am gonna need it...

other than that i have been having fun with friends like paul, rachel chen, and suren....haha took cab all the way to causeway point from school ...and i am label the official freeloader! hey i still pay back wad...

Rachel chen love to take pictures...we took pictures alright...but till i get it from her i cant show u all anythin ...so in the meantime u all have to wait...

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so yep life moved one step each day....wheeee

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ellen degenres is pronounced as ellen D- generous

yeah she is a cool dancer ...48 years old man she looks young....ok i am her new fan

HAPPY b'Day ellen!!

watch ellen degenres show mon-fri at 5 pm

she is hilarious

2006-08-13T21:52:00.000+08:00

i will go through this....its like a habit...love

u gotta get a new habit to get rid of the old one...

i gotta learn to love myself b4 others

i gg to take my time off for a while

gg to focus on the most important thing right now...that is me

so yep....

i got over you already and moving on

enchante'
it was nice to meet u....hope our path will cross someday...at least for the better

till then take care
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nites

2006-08-12T22:30:00.000+08:00

still-by brian mcknight

2006-08-12T22:05:00.000+08:00

i cry by westlife

2006-08-12T21:13:00.000+08:00

My shattered dreams and broken heart
Are mending on the shelf,
I saw you holding hands
Standing close to someone else

Still I sit all alone
Wishing all my feelings were gone
I give my best to you, nothing for me to do

But have one last cry, one last cry before i leave it all behind
I gotta put you outta my mind this time, been living a lie
I guess im down to my last cry...cry

I was here, you were there
I guess we never could agree
While the sun shines on you
I need some love to rain on me

Still I sit all alone
Wishing all my feelings were gone
Gotta get over you
Nothin' for me to do

But have one last cry, one last cry before I leave it all behind
I gotta put you outta my mind this time, been living a lie
I know i gotta be strong cause my life goes on and on and on and onnnnn

(Break)

Im gonna dry my eyes right after i have my
One last cry, one last cry before i leave it all behind
I gotta put you outta my mind for the very last time, been living a lie
I guess im down
I guess im down
I guess im down to my last cryyyyyyyyy

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westlife - one last cry

my life pauses here ....mmm

2006-08-11T18:30:00.000+08:00

hey new life new blog

wads new